fourteen; I feel like i'm missing something, something big.

I have no clue as to what it is, though.

I'm still scared for my dog

We went to the lake today, it's October fest so there was A LOT of early-mid 20 year old people there. One guy kept grinning at me. He seemed like a really sweet guy, even though i hardly spoke with him. Aw well.

As it turns out, i was thinking of the wrong grandma.
I could wear black to the funeral!

so i did

and..

for the record

i felt very over dressed.

Maybe i'm just overly emotional today..

yea

maybe it was the heat too

since i'm burnt again..

lets just hope that it's that..

thirteen; To be honest.

I'm horrified.

I'm horrified of my dog dying

It scares me

she's going to bed really early

and becoming more and more tired

i want to cry everynight when she goes into her bed and i go to mine

i want to keep her with me, so she doesn't die alone.

I'm scared.

GRAH

tomorrow at two is Kylan's grandma's funeral.

since they're of a.. different.. origin, per say, i don't know if i should wear all black or not.

I'm going to anyway, i hope i don't offend anyone.

I have a few all black outfits i could wear

but all of them look more like.. Party outfits, not a funeral

lace kind of shirt and a black skirt.

Hope it will do.

I'm scared for my dog

i'm scared for my mom

i'm scared for my grandma

i'm scared for my life

i'm scared for my house

i'm just down right scared.

Why can't i worry about things that a normal teenager has to worry about?

Like whether or not my boyfriend is going to break up with me

or if i'm going to have enough minutes/texts

I'm so scared.