fourty Three; i can't remember the last time i was so.. scared.

For my friends, i mean.

Brittany is still going down that path..

Sam is starting to follow.

I just want to beg them to stop.

Even though i know that would never work.

They're set on thinking they're fat.

WHEN THEY AREN'T!

I'm so lost right now.

I don't feel right.

I want to curl up in a ball and have someone hold me.

I don't even know what's wrong, i mean.. everything is going fine.

I have a doctor's appointment on Tuesday.

i'll hopefully be being taken off Cipralex :)

Then i have a counselling appointment.

Yea..

Counselling has been interesting, it's been.. there's been a lot of soul searching.

Scott wants me to go into a group anxiety thingy.

Yea...

There was a praticum there when i went for my Youth Worker appointment.

That was.. interesting to say the least.

Can i please get three wishes?

Three wishes to help everyone out, please?

Sure, it's selfish because it's to get rid of some stress on me.

But i just want my friends back, my friends to be normal again.

To smile, to pig out on ice cream, anything. Please.

Joe is talking to me again, not sure if i told you.

Not that any of you care.

But heyy.