Friday, September 24, 2010

twenty Two; I just ate a few pickles.



OH MOTHER FUCKING JESUS

Paul's back.

Austin messaged me on Facebook

And Tyler doesn't have to go to jail.


Paul-

I'm fucking scared. We've put on new locks, and we have deadbolts. We're trying to make the house less easy to break into. It's just my sister and i at home. I'm kind of scared. I'm nervous. I wish i wasn't alone.


Austin-

Yea, he messaged me. So i'm assuming he "Wants to be friends." Bahahhaha. If you want to be friends with your ex, you clearly never loved them (or so i've been told.)
Pissed me off. I feel sick to my stomach over it. Weird, huh?
Break your girlfriend of a year and a day (yea that's right)'s heart and expect it to be all peachy? Alright! .. you shit.

Tyler-

He didn't have to go to jail! That's all i know. I don't know why he might've had to go or anything, he said it's long and stupid. So.. who knows.


I babysat my neighbour's daughter's daughter yesterday while my neighbour's daughter had their cat put down. The cat was old.. Anyway, oh my goodness. Crystal is so adorable

and did so well with me! She hardly cried, and when she did it was 'cause she was hungry, or she was filling her diaper. Oh when she's filling her diaper (and not crying) she's SO cute. I could just eat her up. I babysat for an hour. She was going to pay me, but i couldn't accept the money, i mean.. She just put down her cat, and she has a one month old to take care of. I love that kid. So much.

Sam brought me some primer, it's so amazing. (Make up Primer, by the way)
She also got a puppy, Caeser, oh goodness. He's SO cute. Pom., wiener dog, and pug mix. Sounds ugly but oh goodness he's like 7 weeks old or so. He's so tiny and so cute. He's black, and just. OH GOODNESS. Cute ness overload!

I started a new book series. The Night World by L.J. Smith. I just finished The Clockwork Angel by Cassandra Clare. I can't wait to read her other books. I feel so nerdy.


Veronica's been having some.. teenaged.. problems.. lately. Being hit head on.
I can't help but get annoyed with her, and feel pity. I'm such a horrible friend.


My right side of my chest kinda hurts. I don't know why.

I feel sick.

My head hurts.

I want to cry.

I wish teenagers could see what they have.

That they wouldn't cry when their parents tell them they can't go out.

I wish they could see that their parents do and say what they do and say because they love them and want the best for them (some anyway.)
Instead they complain and bitch about every little thing their parents do. Look around you, is being kept in the house all night really so bad? Does having to keep your grades up seem so horrible?
I re-dyed my hair. It's now no longer splotchy, it's all Black-ish (for the most part)
No it wasn't suppose to be black, it was suppose to be dark brown.
I guess i left it in too long. My bad.
I wish i could feel safe in my own house, my own place of birth, my own home.

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Twenty One; I feel sick.



And i have no idea as to why.

Veronica just came over, we hung out for a few hours.
We had a sort of heart to heart talk.
It was nice.

I dyed my hair again.
It's darkk brown
but i did a shitty dye job
my mom thinks it looks cool.
My friend says people pay a lot of money to have junks missing like mine..
yeaaa..

I have three songs i can't stop listening to..

Beauty Of The Dark- Mads Langer
You're Not Alone - Mads Langer
Wonderful Life- Hurts

Did i tell you that i went to the first dance of the year?
It was pretty intense.
Only person that didn't dance with Austin, yay me.

That day i also carreid Lane around, giving him piggy back rides for like.. three hours.. yea.. ow..
my legs are still sore.

Went to see Easy A
with:
Veronica
Austin
Sam
Bradie
Mariah
Lauren
Kaitlyn
and i think i may be forgetting someone..
but you get the idea
it was a good movie, it kind of reminded me of mine and Veronica's relationship, in a way.
sorta
maybe
ish not really

SO SICK
i may have the flu.
fuck.

I feel nervous, why?

Doctor upped my dosage
i'm up to 30mg or whatever
from 20
from 20$ ish to 91$ ish
scary.

Have to wait for my mom to get me my medicine..
the NEW stuff
the somethingsomething-gas
sounds bad.

MOM NEEDS TO CALL THE COUNSELLOR
OMG
OMG
yea..




Driving through the city to the Temple Station,
Cries into the leather sea,
But Susie knows the baby was a family man,
But the world has got him down on his knees

So she throws him at the wall,
Her kisses burn like fire,
And suddenly he starts to believe,
And he takes her in his arms but he doesnt know why,
But he thinks that he begins to see

She says:
'Dont let go,
Never give up its such a wonderful life,
Dont let go,
Never give up its such a wonderful life'

<3

not even my usual type of music. omg.



SO SICK
OMG