I cried myself to sleep lastnight.
Because i was afraid my dog didn't love me anymore.
Afraid she didn't remember me.
It scared me to death.
I had the thought of her potential death run through my mind,
Which made me think that she's the last thing i have that also belonged to my father
Sure, that may not be exactly true.
But she's one thing the two of us loved very much.
I then cried, 'cause i missed my daddy so much.
i grabbed his ring and balled my eyes out.
I wish i had proof that he's proud of me, that he loves me.
I miss him more than i miss anyone.
I'm sick. I've been hacking up a lung for the passed few days.
And i'm losing my voice.
I sound like a pubescent boy.
My voice keeps cracking.
NOW I HAVE THE SNIFFLES
which pisses me off.
Veronica is seriously pissing.me.off.
I noticed that everything, always, has to be about her?
yeah, apparently so.
I didn't give her the attention she wanted, and i didn't take her side.
So she got pissed with me.
Oh, Okay.
Then later she calls me and said that she was bored and wanted to
talk to someone, i said i had to go for supper and she said
"Ok i'll call someone else. bye"
Ok, that's cool.
THEN
as we're walking to school the next day she said "I'm not going to hang
out with you guys at lunch 'cause i'm going to KFC with Shay"
Alright, that's cool.
Later, not even ten minutes after that she walks to her other friend
"What are you doing at lunch today"
Ok, i get it. You don't want to spend lunch with me
BUT REALLY
must you be SO rude?
/Whiney Teen.
I decided that i really want a Clock necklace/Clock penant/thingy
I love them, so much. I've wanted one for awhile, but i've kept it to myself.
The other day i decided that, what the hell.
I'll email aunty Faye some pictures i like of them, and ask her to keep in eye out for me
Since she lives in a bigger city.
(By like.. 80k people..)
I've seen Paul like three times.
Twice was within the hour..
Once was when i was walking home, he was in the parkinglot i walk by.
Then the second and third time was in Safeway.
Scary.Shit.
I've been babysitting a lot lately
Not really.
I feel like my life is unraveling.
Good friendships are dying
and my life feels so horrible.
Even though it's fine, and i'm just a whiney teenager.
So sick.
I may be able to get out of gym, which makes my life <3>
Because i was afraid my dog didn't love me anymore.
Afraid she didn't remember me.
It scared me to death.
I had the thought of her potential death run through my mind,
Which made me think that she's the last thing i have that also belonged to my father
Sure, that may not be exactly true.
But she's one thing the two of us loved very much.
I then cried, 'cause i missed my daddy so much.
i grabbed his ring and balled my eyes out.
I wish i had proof that he's proud of me, that he loves me.
I miss him more than i miss anyone.
I'm sick. I've been hacking up a lung for the passed few days.
And i'm losing my voice.
I sound like a pubescent boy.
My voice keeps cracking.
NOW I HAVE THE SNIFFLES
which pisses me off.
Veronica is seriously pissing.me.off.
I noticed that everything, always, has to be about her?
yeah, apparently so.
I didn't give her the attention she wanted, and i didn't take her side.
So she got pissed with me.
Oh, Okay.
Then later she calls me and said that she was bored and wanted to
talk to someone, i said i had to go for supper and she said
"Ok i'll call someone else. bye"
Ok, that's cool.
THEN
as we're walking to school the next day she said "I'm not going to hang
out with you guys at lunch 'cause i'm going to KFC with Shay"
Alright, that's cool.
Later, not even ten minutes after that she walks to her other friend
"What are you doing at lunch today"
Ok, i get it. You don't want to spend lunch with me
BUT REALLY
must you be SO rude?
/Whiney Teen.
I decided that i really want a Clock necklace/Clock penant/thingy
I love them, so much. I've wanted one for awhile, but i've kept it to myself.
The other day i decided that, what the hell.
I'll email aunty Faye some pictures i like of them, and ask her to keep in eye out for me
Since she lives in a bigger city.
(By like.. 80k people..)
I've seen Paul like three times.
Twice was within the hour..
Once was when i was walking home, he was in the parkinglot i walk by.
Then the second and third time was in Safeway.
Scary.Shit.
I've been babysitting a lot lately
Not really.
I feel like my life is unraveling.
Good friendships are dying
and my life feels so horrible.
Even though it's fine, and i'm just a whiney teenager.
So sick.
I may be able to get out of gym, which makes my life <3>
